Its November again. My birthday is right around the corner. What up Scorpios?! And every year I beat myself up emotionally about what I haven’t accomplished. Which I know is horrible. But my life has been disrespecting my plans. Just plain being difficult. I have no choice but to let it ride.
The main thing that weighs down on me is school. I planned to be finish with my degree by age 22, climbing the corporate ladder; well on my way to world domination. But I have not done the first thing on the list. I have been trying to finish my degree for a while now but every semester brought a different challenge from lack of transportation, finances, time or just resources in general.
Having my own business has really worked in my favor when it comes to staying gainfully working. But now I have my son and my degree is more important than ever. I’m the first person in my family to pursue a degree although both my younger sister and brother as in school now. But I can still show my son that hard work and determination pay off. I need to be a life example of that.
Anyway, I will be turning 28… OMG I feel so old. Ok not old but unsuccessful might be a better word. I don’t know. I have done more without a degree than people I know with Ph.D. But this is a hurdle I have been trying to overcome for years. It feels hopeless at times… Ever feel like that?
It seems so small in the scheme of things especially when I think of my many blesses. I have wonderful friends and family, a roof over my head and food to eat. But I guess this comes at the perfect time with Thanksgiving this month.